Is it over?

I can’t help thinking that just by sitting here on bed rest, and knowing I will be on disability and everything else for the next gazillion months, did I just put the brakes completely on my career?  Did I kill what I had at my current job and what I worked for, for so many years?  I will admit, I’ve been there for over 10 years, trying to get my next promotion, which believe it or not, even in this day and age, due to this pregnancy, I just lost a good year or the next cycle of promotions, lets just say.  My priority has always been to have another baby, and I think after my losses, it just made me feel incomplete.  I finally got to a place where I can accept (I think), what is happening right now.  And it is happening, just like I thought, I would get pregnant, if I was lucky I would work from home as long as I could, and then bed rest and that’s it.  Maybe I didn’t actually believe it would happen.  I feel like I lost the control, this is it now.  Why do I feel by doing this very natural thing, I just burned a bridge, I just said hey screw this job?  Is it time that after all these years I need to stop thinking of what “they” think of me and a

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