Guilt!

Feeling guilty has become so natural to me….can’t stay late at work=GUILTY!  Can’t pay enough attention to my daughter=GUILTY.  Have zero time to even have a 5 minute conversation with my husband=GUILTY!  It goes on, and on, and on.  How do I/we remove ourselves from this guilt.  Do I make my day more productive somehow, would that be enough?  Does that end up putting too much pressure on work (which already has a shit load of pressure), or my family?  That just won’t work.  I actually work in an environment that thrives on guilt!  You feel it everywhere.  Co-workers pushing themselves to prove something, that technically no one has asked for!  This is our daily life…yes you have responsibilities, but when is going over and above a delusion and not reality anymore? Is it when you’ve given your all to your job and you still look like the “mom” that is not dependable because she has a child?  Even though she’s here early, but needs to leave on time?  Or when you ask her to go on a business trip, and she actually needs to take more than 5 minutes to see if it’ll work for her family?  This is the reality for some working mom’s…it shouldn’t be this way, but what can we do…we juggle it all.  Now, I think if this guilt exists no matter what, isn’t better if it doesn’t all fall on your family?  If you must go through it and you must feel it, take it out of something that won’t affect your family!

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