This feeling….

So yesterday was a crazy day at work…because we were busier than normal days and I had to leave a little early due to my sitter needing to leave.   Of course we’re talking 20 minutes earlier than normal..nothing crazy!  Of course all of a sudden it feels like there are a million things that need to get done or more work is piling on and on top of that my boss puts meetings on the calendar for Monday morning almost 1st thing, which I have to prepare for.  With one hour in the day left, that wasn’t going to happen.  Knowing what’s waiting on Monday is a like this big weight on me…I can’t function practically all weekend, I pretty much take it out on everyone at home, and honestly I haven’t been in the mood to do anything at all, not even things I planned with my daughter.  Why this feeling?  What is this?  Stress, anger?  I don’t really know, but I do know that it can’t continue.  I also know that I don’t like confrontation and having to tell people they obvious, it just makes me feel like I’m talking to someone that knows what the deal is, but doesn’t care.  I sit here with a choice, the choice to have the place I call work be more important than my family.  Is this for real?  Logically speaking, obviously it’s not more important, it’s basically on the bottom of the list.   So I start with little baby steps, pushing myself to do things at home and share time with my daughter.  Tomorrow is another day. but this feeling isn’t welcome here!

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